5 to 6 on daily scale. KJ & I cleaned out the garage for Nan's storage stuff & I removed all the oil/grease from the cement. We both hit the wall @ about 5pm and couldn't do anymore after working all day on it. I filled my entire truck bed with stuff/garbage.



The most difficult part of this is how it affects my family. I can handle the repercussions, although not happy with them, but the backlash and ripples that seem to continue on without an end in sight really wears on my wife and kids. Sorry.. tears. Each one has given me so much joy that I cannot begin to express to them truly how much I love them and am truly sorry for the suffering that they have to endure because of me.



I NEED TO YELL! THE MEDICAL COMMUNITY DOESN'T HAVE A CLUE WHEN IT COMES TO PRESCRIBING MEDICINE TO THE BIPOLAR PATIENT. Last May after a routine blood levels test to make sure that the lithium isn't damaging the liver or kidneys the psychiatrist added another 300mg to my daily regimen and after 4 days I couldn't be awake for more than 1 hour each day which continued for 5 days. On the second day of day of Christmas, sorry that doesn't belong there. On the second day my p(or psychiatrist) said oh just go back to 900mg but I had to drag it out of her that this type of reaction has occurred many times with patients in the past when receiving too much. MY WIFE WAS FREAKING OUT. HER HUSBAND AFTER 15 YEARS WAS LITERALLY COMATOSE FOR 5 DAYS AND SHE COULDN'T ADMIT A MISTAKE BY SAYING "SORRY". WHAT A HORRIBLE GUESSING GAME THEY PLAY WITH OUR LIVES. THEY HARDLY DISCUSS ANYTHING WITH US EXCEPT FOR ... "BUT LET'S TRY THIS (HAND ME A SCRIPT) AND SAME TIME NEXT MONTH WORK WELL FOR YOU?" .... Chao for now!