Thursday, February 28, 2008
5-6 Things have been very crazy around our family running everyday to the Mayo Clinic in Phx. KJ had to call all her family and let them know that Aunt V. might not make it past today. Pretty scary stuff. At 12:30 we met with the doctors and they said that things were stable and cautiously optimistic about a recovery. Nothing had permanent damage and if the bone marrow transplant does take we will know in 3-7 days... choa for now
Sunday, February 17, 2008
6< "The Brain Chemistry Diet" (Putnam Books, 2002) by Michael Lesser, M.D. I have to read it and then I will post a review. I ran across this in my seaching and the individual said that it helped him tremendously to be able to eat foods that would help get him out of depression or not stimulate his mania. I am willing to try just about anything
Yesterday, I went out and bought a men's active multivitamin, ester C, omega-3 and garlic pills. I have probably gone 1+ years w/o the multivatamin, C and garlic. Adding the omega-3 to that list are all supposed to help with my nuerotransmitters. Here's to crossing fingers!
My 14 yr old son and I took a($8.50/load and none thought it could be done) load of junk to the dump yesterday. It was so good to have some one on one time with him and really talk. I don't think I will ever forget those 2-3 hours we spent together just talking and working. My little Mazda pickup was stacked 4 feet high above the hood with the remains of a gazebo, ugly existing desk furniture that was nailed to the wall in my daughters room, horrible green faded verticle blinds, bad river rocks, rotten lemons and oranges that had fallen from the neighbors trees aswell as about 15 latices that where screwed into the block wall of our fence and a southwest design privacy door/screen(it was removed b4 we bought the house). All these things and more were between the RV gate and our backyard gate with all our trash recepticles and bikes. ect. intentionally placed there so as not to be seen by anyone.
Out of sight, out of mind, right? Probably not, KJ had been gone all morning (taking her mother Nan(my mother-inlaw to the hospital for more tests for the bone marrow transplant for Aunt V) so she didn't believe us when we told here that it was all cleaned up and had to go see it for herself. LOL doubting Thomas. Cleanliness is next to Godliness ya know! Have to go now cuz it is 5:50 am and wake everyone up for family scriptures. Choa for now!
Yesterday, I went out and bought a men's active multivitamin, ester C, omega-3 and garlic pills. I have probably gone 1+ years w/o the multivatamin, C and garlic. Adding the omega-3 to that list are all supposed to help with my nuerotransmitters. Here's to crossing fingers!
My 14 yr old son and I took a($8.50/load and none thought it could be done) load of junk to the dump yesterday. It was so good to have some one on one time with him and really talk. I don't think I will ever forget those 2-3 hours we spent together just talking and working. My little Mazda pickup was stacked 4 feet high above the hood with the remains of a gazebo, ugly existing desk furniture that was nailed to the wall in my daughters room, horrible green faded verticle blinds, bad river rocks, rotten lemons and oranges that had fallen from the neighbors trees aswell as about 15 latices that where screwed into the block wall of our fence and a southwest design privacy door/screen(it was removed b4 we bought the house). All these things and more were between the RV gate and our backyard gate with all our trash recepticles and bikes. ect. intentionally placed there so as not to be seen by anyone.
Out of sight, out of mind, right? Probably not, KJ had been gone all morning (taking her mother Nan(my mother-inlaw to the hospital for more tests for the bone marrow transplant for Aunt V) so she didn't believe us when we told here that it was all cleaned up and had to go see it for herself. LOL doubting Thomas. Cleanliness is next to Godliness ya know! Have to go now cuz it is 5:50 am and wake everyone up for family scriptures. Choa for now!
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Bipolar Nutrition and Diet
5 <-- If you notice I haven't written lately. I had an episode and tried to hide it from my wife. Mental illness caries a huge stigmatizim because people are looked down upon as weak or lesser than. All this thinking came from working this week w/my trainer who has diabetes. Today we do not look at diabetes as something horrible and maybe we might catch it if we are next to someone with it. Because of modern medicine when my trainer wasn't feeling well he grabbed his test kit and found out that his blood sugar was too high. He got some rest made sure he didn't eat any carbs and he was great the next day.
So yesterday I had an apointment w/my counselor (due to the prior episode) and when I asked what should the diet of a bipoletic(made up word?) eat she knew only that a diet low in bad carbs was best. She also said that the omega-3 fatty acids were good to take. We talked about the similarities between Diabetes and Bipolar Disorder and that because mental illness science is soo new comparitavely that hopefully that my posterity can just take a home test each day and regulate their own levels of neurotransmitters. I guess you could say that I am a Pioneer in mentall illness and hopefully the next generations will be able to regulate this awful family crushing illness. Search google for Bipolar Diet and the 1st article that came up is now on the LINKS portion of this blog.
My grandfather Wayne Lemmon died from diabetes in 1959 when my mother was but 12 years old. It was induced from WWII injuries that he sustained as a gunner on top of many tanks. He returned 6' and 89 lbs and was in and out of the VA hospital so many times that it would make your head spin. He was a Pioneer for diabetes and I cannot wait to meet him in heaven along with my grandmother, his wife, who suffered severely from bipolar disorder. Between the years of 1959 and 1972 she was sooo messed up that all her kids didn't want anything to do with her and her dilusions/visions caused most to push away from her. Thank goodness for a wonderful angel by the name of Ernie Mocco who was a great stabalizer in her life and a huge SAINT in the lives of my aunt, uncle and mother because of the relief of such huge episodes and calming effect he had on her. I have a greater love and appreciation for her because of my own discoveries with bipolar disorder over the last year and a half. I miss her soooooo much and wish that we could talk about all of it. She was never diagnossed.
So yesterday I had an apointment w/my counselor (due to the prior episode) and when I asked what should the diet of a bipoletic(made up word?) eat she knew only that a diet low in bad carbs was best. She also said that the omega-3 fatty acids were good to take. We talked about the similarities between Diabetes and Bipolar Disorder and that because mental illness science is soo new comparitavely that hopefully that my posterity can just take a home test each day and regulate their own levels of neurotransmitters. I guess you could say that I am a Pioneer in mentall illness and hopefully the next generations will be able to regulate this awful family crushing illness. Search google for Bipolar Diet and the 1st article that came up is now on the LINKS portion of this blog.
My grandfather Wayne Lemmon died from diabetes in 1959 when my mother was but 12 years old. It was induced from WWII injuries that he sustained as a gunner on top of many tanks. He returned 6' and 89 lbs and was in and out of the VA hospital so many times that it would make your head spin. He was a Pioneer for diabetes and I cannot wait to meet him in heaven along with my grandmother, his wife, who suffered severely from bipolar disorder. Between the years of 1959 and 1972 she was sooo messed up that all her kids didn't want anything to do with her and her dilusions/visions caused most to push away from her. Thank goodness for a wonderful angel by the name of Ernie Mocco who was a great stabalizer in her life and a huge SAINT in the lives of my aunt, uncle and mother because of the relief of such huge episodes and calming effect he had on her. I have a greater love and appreciation for her because of my own discoveries with bipolar disorder over the last year and a half. I miss her soooooo much and wish that we could talk about all of it. She was never diagnossed.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Child 4
6<-- When I woke up @ 1.45am to check on the boys Child 4 was wide awake and very talkative. His temperature was high, so I gave him some medicine. I rubbed his back for quite some time but found it difficult not to chat with him so not to stimulate him any more. (I just checked on him again and the temperature is down and still fast asleep). What a character he is. Last night KJ and Child 3 took Child 1 to a bishops youth council and he became scared and was crying, thinking that nobody big was there to watch him all the while Child 2, his older brother, was sitting on the couch under the same blanket. I walked in and quickly assured him that he was being watched over, that we would never leave him alone and that his older brother Child 2 was old enough to take care of him.
Good, Better, Best by Oaks is such a great talk and I am currently listening to it. I believe that my organization troubles need to be based 1st on this and the other things will fall into placed. My family is more important than all other distractions. Yes, I do have to support financially my family which I have done a horrible job of lately. Due to struggles with depression my family has suffered much hardship over the last four months but there is a light now at the end of the tunnel that I have been in and things are slowly turning around. Chao for now!
Good, Better, Best by Oaks is such a great talk and I am currently listening to it. I believe that my organization troubles need to be based 1st on this and the other things will fall into placed. My family is more important than all other distractions. Yes, I do have to support financially my family which I have done a horrible job of lately. Due to struggles with depression my family has suffered much hardship over the last four months but there is a light now at the end of the tunnel that I have been in and things are slowly turning around. Chao for now!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Jesus Christ
6<-- I had a great day today. I taught the lesson in Gospel Essentials class and will some great help and direction from the Spirit, experienced a classroom full of teary eyes all sharing something personally about Jesus Christ. What an experience words cannot describe it so I won't even try.
The opportunity to repent and be forgiven for our sins and then work hard to be better is the most miraculous gift ever given and I thank my Lord and Savior for such an infinite gift. No amount of money can pay for sins just the infinite sacrifice that He did so very long ago. Depression cannot have a hold on me and I cannot let it as the opposition is working so hard to destroy the families. Say a prayer and thank your Heavenly Father for this tests of all tests we call "Life" and that we can win if we can lean on each other and Him, of course. Chao for now.
The opportunity to repent and be forgiven for our sins and then work hard to be better is the most miraculous gift ever given and I thank my Lord and Savior for such an infinite gift. No amount of money can pay for sins just the infinite sacrifice that He did so very long ago. Depression cannot have a hold on me and I cannot let it as the opposition is working so hard to destroy the families. Say a prayer and thank your Heavenly Father for this tests of all tests we call "Life" and that we can win if we can lean on each other and Him, of course. Chao for now.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
6<-- How does an unorganized person become organized? I went inline skating this morning and it felt great. I tried jumping rope for 8 min. but only lasted 3 LOL. My mind is going faster and bouncing around. A difficult task but necessary to pick something and complete it till it is done. Chao for now!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
All Good!!!
5-6 so far. No meds and I haven't felt better. Staying away from carbs is really tough for me. Work has been great both selling maintenance chemicals and delivering pizzas. Yes doing pizzas again. We did a crazy thing and shut off cable tv, so no tv in the F's house. It is kind of an experiment to see how much the family can accomplish and if we will really miss it. My bet is that things will run smoother, more will be accomplished and we will barely miss it. Maybe wishful thinking but it never hurts to try and see. Chao for now!
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