Child 4

6<-- When I woke up @ 1.45am to check on the boys Child 4 was wide awake and very talkative. His temperature was high, so I gave him some medicine. I rubbed his back for quite some time but found it difficult not to chat with him so not to stimulate him any more. (I just checked on him again and the temperature is down and still fast asleep). What a character he is. Last night KJ and Child 3 took Child 1 to a bishops youth council and he became scared and was crying, thinking that nobody big was there to watch him all the while Child 2, his older brother, was sitting on the couch under the same blanket. I walked in and quickly assured him that he was being watched over, that we would never leave him alone and that his older brother Child 2 was old enough to take care of him.
Good, Better, Best by Oaks is such a great talk and I am currently listening to it. I believe that my organization troubles need to be based 1st on this and the other things will fall into placed. My family is more important than all other distractions. Yes, I do have to support financially my family which I have done a horrible job of lately. Due to struggles with depression my family has suffered much hardship over the last four months but there is a light now at the end of the tunnel that I have been in and things are slowly turning around. Chao for now!

4's for the 31st and 1st.. I was busy on the 31st and on New Years Eve not so much... I did get to spend a little while driving around w/KJ and that coupled along with playing Toss Up, a dice game, with the entire family was the highlight of the day.

Organization is an area in which I have much room for growth. Planning every night before so that bouncing(allowing mania to rule) and drowning(allowing depression to rule) are not options. Life is too short to spend sitting in a vehicle parked somewhere with a virtual blanket on me keeping me down. This is my past not my future...Chao for now!

Gonna BBQ hamburgers for lunch or dinner today. One of Child 3's favorites. Last day b4 kids start back to school. What a blessing they are in my life.