6 In the past when I wasn't feeling well & didn't want to lie on my blog I just didn't post. Since I have been feeling so well I thought I had better try like a diary and keep track of my moods everyday. I know that I haven't talked about anything else but the website and login info are there because in 10 min you can get a better idea of what Vemma does and how it works. Being a liquid it is instantly bio-available and is absorbed at a rate of about 95%. Hugely different than the 20% or so that pills are and you don't have to choke them down. The news link has the entire double blind study at the very end of the pages. Check it out, you will be glad you did.

www.joinverve.com

user name: verve
password: freedom

Singing & Whistling

6 Two days ago on my way to work I just started singing and whistling. Not at the same time of course but off and on. Now when that happens, I know I am at my best. Not too high but just right. I have sung with a barbershop choir in the past and loved it. Unfortunately when I am not feeling well I cannot sing. So I consider this a really good sign.

I also woke up at 4am this morning and have been busy ever since. When I have a hypomania my heart races at about 140-150 bpm but this morning it is about 89 bpm. No racing thoughts. Just feeling really good.

Now if the amazing liquid dietary supplement that I am taking can make me feel this good. How would I feel if instead of weighing 235 lbs. I would actually exercise and get myself down to 170-180 lbs. That ofcourse is still a dream because if it were a goal then it would be written down and broken down with a proper plan of action.

These are my wife's thoughts pulled from our http://www.healthyhomejob.com/ site and thought it was pertinent to share.

When something changes your life I think you have an obligation to share it.
On June 22nd, 2008 we were introduced to this product Vemma from some friends who had become independent representatives for this company and wanted to know if we were interested in the business opportunity. Well I pride myself in not taking part in network marketing companies but Joe wanted to try the product and I have been looking at bringing in other streams of income into our family. So we decided to try the product because we trusted our friends and wanted to join ventures with them. We had no idea the affect it was going to have on Joe. As you may know Joe was diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder two years ago, but I can remember as far back as 15 years ago that something was wrong. Two years ago we got an official diagnosis. Over the last 15 years he has had depressive episodes rather frequently. In the past two years he has lived in a constant state of depression at one level or another. Well three days into taking Vemma the cloud was lifted and he hasn't had a depressive episode since.

I am not suggesting that this liquid vitamin is a cure all (I know better and would never make promises like that). But I will tell you that I have increasingly since our enrollment gotten my husband back and I couldn't be happier.

I feel like with news like that you have to share it. We have heard many more health results from our friends and really believe this product is worth sharing. Yes, it will also make you extra money with some effort, but the product alone is worth any amount of money that it cost.

If you are interested in changing either the health or financial part of your life please contact as so we can get you more information and get you on the path to wellness and wealth.

Love you! Chao for now!

So Far So Good!

6 Last week I sold more chemicals for my day job than I had ever sold before. My highs haven't been very high and my lows aren't very low at all. I think I am feeling normal again all thanks to VEMMA = Vitamins, Essential Vitamins, Mangosteen, Aloe vera. Because it is in a 2 oz liquid form it is absorbed much more completely and within just 3 days I really noticed a difference. 8-22 will be 60 days on VEMMA and I know my wife is always waiting for the next shoe to drop but so far so good.

Too Sensitive!!!!! Just Jump In and Swim!

4-6 My wonderful wife agreed a couple of years ago to be my gauge. In other words, she being the closest person to me and very aware of everything around her like a temperature gauge, she would tell me when she sees signs of me going to hypomania or depression so that I could get an early jump on things and try to change the course of my individual boat. Since my diagnosis of depression then the bipolar diagnosis I have been tooooooo dad gum sensitive about my own feelings. It is like I put my big toe in the water of the pool before making any decisions on how I am going to live my life that day. If the water is cold then I coil up and say "Oooooooooooooooh Nooooooooooooooo that water is too cold to swim in (function in real life) and then I start doing all this stupid negative self talk.

Positive self talk is great for pulling one self out the muck but the negative stuff just about knocks me out for the whole day. The negative self talk steps into the ring and the positive self talk steps into the ring. Both fighters come to the center knock gloves and there is the bell. Negative plays dirty and hits below the belt, positive goes down but then he gets right back up before he gets to 4. The fight sometimes goes on all day and I just get so tired of it that I want to go to bed just to have a chance at having to check the temperature of the pools water tomorrow in hopes that it will be warm(hypomania) so that I can swim all day.

By blogging this senario I just got hit in the head with a 2 by 4 and positive self talk just said quit using your toe! Just jump in and swim everyday. Everyone else in in the pool(functioning, working, living) Jump In and Swim!

Wow What a Feeling!

For over a week now I have been taking VEMMA (pronounced veema) a liquid 2oz product. VEMMA comes from Vitamins, Essential Minerals, Mangosteen, Aloe vera. I tried the product out for 2 days and felt such a difference that I became an independant rep so I could also sell it. This is not a sales pitch. I have trully felt like my old self again and don't have the anxiety or depression like I have experience over the last 3 years. Yes I know that it has only been 9 days but I am willing to do just about anything to be able to feel like this and it is really quite reasonable for a 30 day supply. It has 43 xanthones in it and isn't gonna cure anything. But it will make you healthier, feel better and make you happier. I have shared it will several of my friends locally and received great responses back from everyone. Try it for 30 days. You don't have anything to loose and everything to gain.

http://www.myvemma.com/joefreeman

Please tell me what you think.

5.5 I felt pretty good yesterday and even played tennis w/Zack @ 5 am. This morning I did crunches, jumping jacks and high stepped all around the house for 30 min. I cannot just exist anymore because I have too many people counting on me. This has definitely taken its toll on my sweet wife and positive changes have to be made. Luckily I am still ranked as the #1 rookie with my company which means job stability and that means allot to my wife.
Chao for now.

Yesterday was horrible. I was uncooperative, mean and very distant. I am married to a great woman. I surely don't deserve her. I cannot cut this life short nor can I cut the marriage. I do not know how she puts up with me and my downs...